things i am no longer interested in...

i am no longer interested in
trying to prove my worthiness by not making mistakes.

i am no longer interested in
being the “nice” white lady who only says things that make you feel good.

i am no longer interested in
listening to people talk about money who have never stood in line for food stamps or declared bankruptcy or wondered where their next meal was coming from. 

i am no longer interested in
using identity politics as weapons.

i am no longer (never have been) interested in
weapons.

i am no longer interested in
symbolic cultural change over actual economic shifts.

i am no longer interested in
taking medical advice from anyone in or associated with the government.

i am no longer interested in
things that distract me from witnessing the beauty, pain, and awe of the world around me.

i am no longer interested in
taking medical advice from people who know some things about some diseases and some drugs but know absolutely nothing about health or what makes a person well.

i am no longer interested in
doctors injecting things into my body that i didn’t explicitly ask for, that i do not explicitly desire, with a full-body YES.

i am no longer interested in
pharmaceutical companies and their pawns telling me that i could get very sick because i have vaccine deficiency.

i am no longer interested in
attempts to rob life of its wonder and complexity.

i am no longer interested in
“keeping up” with all the things that i am “supposed” to do to be successful.

i am no longer interested in
in any excuses for corporate controlled agriculture.

i am no longer interested in
slaving to a social algorithm that keeps me on my phone, keeps me censored (oops, i mean “edited”), short or shallow.

i am no longer interested in
political parties (more boxes) trying to squish all of my values into another old, white man.

i am no longer interested in
waiting for the government to do literally anything ever that is in my best interest.

i am no longer interested in
taking any input about health from anyone who doesn’t understand or believe that the health of the planet and of humans is intrinsically intertwined.

i am no longer (and never have been) interested in
spiritual “influencers” or cultures that don’t do the work of having an actual, deep original thought that could only arise from working with themselves and partaking in a journey of self-actualization.

i am no longer interested in
planning as an attempt to control my intuition.

i have never been interested in
nationalism in any way.

i am no longer interested in
any way of life that keeps me away from a deep relationship to the natural world.

i am no longer interested in
30-year-old white girls who live in LA who say anything about how ‘hard’ their life is or how i, too, “can have it all.”

i am no longer interested in
“manifestation” or trying to “make” my life happen.

i am no longer interested in
engaging with the 24-hour news cycle to give me the feeling of “being so involved because i care so much” when actually i haven’t done shit except listen to tragedies about all the people who don’t live next door to me who i could actually be paying attention to and taking care with.

i am no longer interested  in
taking medical advice from anyone who doesn’t start from a place of complete awe at the fact that we are alive at all and how incredibly remarkable that is.

i am no longer interested in
anything or anyone who says my feelings (the weather expression of my heart) are too much, not valid or incorrect in any way. 

i am no longer interested in
consumerism as an excuse to avoid transformation.

i am resigning from the things i am no longer interested in.